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Bye Bye For A While

Tue Feb 10, 2009, 1:11 PM

Ok people... I've deleted almost all works from my gallery, I left only a few that have some special meaning to me. Why? Because I don't like them anymore. They're all so cliche and I'm sick of it. There was a time when I loved what I ''work'', but now I think that it such loss of time... It's not original, not anymore. You can see one person in million of manipulations... One girl dressed in long gown & corset in every gallery. Enough with it. I need some space and time to get all of my lost pieces into the one, I need to find myself... I will post some works meantime, they probably will be different from everything, but I need some freedom.

Untill then, I wish you everything the best... And please... BE ORIGINAL & UNIQUE!
Don't you ever worry about pageviews and favs. When the most people think the same, it means that they don't even contemplate.

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Mood: On Strike

Mrak!

Wed Dec 10, 2008, 1:42 PM

_{Hladnoća. Mrak. Drhtaj. Strah.

Sapet. Nag. Krhak. Sam.

Dok, na patosu - blato svud,

kašljem mulj, a maštom zvuk

tutnji i seća na grub udarac tup,

već narednog časa, evo, budim se tu... tu?

Gde je to "tu", gde sam sad?

Besan sam, a svestan da nemam trag

kud van iz bezdana.

Pokrenuh um...a kosti? Čini se, sve su tu - i bole.

Prisilna igra: tišina kida mislima krila, dok tonem.

Sekundi. Večnost. Grč. Noge.

Pokušaj. Žmarci. Ništa. I opet.

Malo bolje. Ali ne...ne mogu još, ne..ne dovoljno.

Klecanje. Mučni napor, zamor, znoj.

Zamalo. Još malo. Izdrži...! Napokon!

Čini mi se sada sušta moć samo stajati uspravno!

"Ustasmo!" - s uzdahom, rekoh nogama svojim, a uzdah moj

primih u uši s užasom: prostor mi ehom vraća bol, i tada shvatam kob:

zatvoren, zarobljen negde - zašto je tako, i gde je

zatvor što sablasno nem je, kavez, moj usud i čemer?

K'o u snu breme - ono kada ne možeš da trčiš,

ono kada ne možeš da bežiš, i skamenjen ječiš.

U taj čas - tresnu me svetlo, snežno belo,

padoh mu u naručje zlo, nežno, slepo...

Kada podigoh kapke - svuda, desno, levo,

gore, dole oko mene je od stakla veo!

Prostor ceo - od ogledala satkan!

Niotkuda otvora, prozora ni vrata!

Na ivici snaga, maglovito shvatam

da u mene pilje bolne oči sa svih strana...

Ogledala! ...svi zidovi, patos, plafon...

O, gledam vas, kriva lica plove strahom...

K'o da mi sudi bezbroj mojih pogleda, sve je ja, znam,

svi se bojimo, strepimo gde je kraj naš...

....mrak...!

Odjednom, huk ruši muk. Zvuk grubi ubi mi sluh.

Da stupim - kud bih, kad tlu preti potres? Preki poče sud!

Drhte zidovi, tavan - i bezbroj mojih glava,

sablasni roj grimasa, hrli meni - krv mi ledi, shvatam tada

kakva je to zamka: prostor se skuplja, a kad

zgužva se skroz do kraja - zdrobiće me, to mi žele, sad znam!

Nada da ipak sanjam postade bleda i tanka:

stižu mi, nema spasa- smrviće me, nemam kud i tačka!

I baš u taj čas, šansa... u patosu je rupa!

Svest posta budna: shvatih, svetlo u sobi je stiglo otuda!

Sudba mi nudi uzmak, vratih osmeh za uzvrat.

Al' me njena ruka gruba tresnu već sledećeg sekunda, jer

rupa nema dna, nema dna, ne vidi se, nema ga!

Ako skočim, ni pod razno ne mogu preživeti taj pad! I šta sad?

Ovog sveta sav strah spoznah u trenu kad jak

osećaj gadnog kraja dade mi znak da skočim u taj kanal...

prštanje stakla... sada više nema natrag. Kotrljam se kroz sluzav, ljigav tunel bez kraja...

Ta tama grize oko ispod kapka, gmiže kožom, hitro stapa me

s mrtvilom mraka, gnjecavo crnilo vlada...

Padam... i padam... i plačem... i padam...

i najzad... eto kraja.. svetlo! Nada?

Izleteh i premreh i tresnuh o belo

- da li spas, il' opelo? Samo led, dušom celom.

I tad videh, shvatih, teško verovah javi:

moje lice, sasvim bledo, poput oblaka se nadvi nada mnom,

bedno malim, što je iskašljan na taj zid wc-šolje,

zbunjen vapim, hoću gore da se vratim...

I stidim se i gadim, jer sad mi je jasno sasvim

da bejah u svojoj glavi, da sam ispljuvan vani...

Ispovraćao sebe iz sebe, već se u dnu šolje davim...

Onaj nad šoljom - bivši ja - drhti, stenje i žvali.

(Bol...) ...kakav to gnev moj čini da svest boj vodi za presto nad sobom?

I sve što bio sam pre tog trena - nije vredno, al' sad je svejedno. Ja nisam ja.

(Mrak...) ...kakav to gnev moj čini da svest boj vodi za presto nad sobom?

I sve što bio sam pre tog trena - nije vredno, i s jedom gledam svoje lice bedno tu iznad...

Čitav bazdi na vinjak, zvera u ništa, a ipak

nije sam u kupatilu, neko ili nešto je tamo, iza...

neka sena... nije jedna... to su čovek i žena,

tapšu mu ramena, tad napregnuh oka polusnena,

i poznah ta lica tuđa, grozna što ga teraju da odmah

pusti vodu da skončam, kao otpad. Ona je

Sociofobija, on je 21. Vek, oni su

došli po njega, oni ga lažu da znaju lek! NE!

Ne budi glup, oni žele samo ljušturu,

samo olupinu, ljusku smušenu, bezličnu, skrušenu, srušen duh, uvek tuđ sebi samom,

budeš gluv, venčan s tamom, ne daj me, ne daj se, lažu te, molim te, slušaj me! Ne!

..ali već je kasno, on je začaran bajkom

- da sve će biti krasno čim ga prime u to carstvo,

gde nema bola, gde savest nije patrola,

gde si lišen mozga, gde si ponosni vlasnik bar-koda. On pušta vodu.

Poslednjim pogledom oka, vidim kako ga pohotno ljube,

ona je već gola... Orgijaju, skaradno slave, prodiru u njega...

On je balav i prazan i srećan i oslobođen svega.

Mrak.

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Mood: Distracted
Listening to: Marchelo
Reading: my new song

While Your Lips Are Still Red...

Fri Nov 21, 2008, 12:37 PM

_{''Sweet little words made for silence not talk
Young heart for love not heartache
Dark hair for catching the wind
Not to veil the sight of a cold world

Kiss while your lips are still red
While he's still silent
Rest while bosom is still untouched, unveiled
Hold another hand while the hand's still without a tool
Drown into eyes while they're still blind
Love while the night still hides the withering dawn

First day of love never comes back
A passionate hour's never a wasted one
The violin, the poet's hand
Every thawing heart plays your theme with care

Kiss while your lips are still red
While he's still silent
Rest while bosom is still untouched, unveiled
Hold another hand while the hand's still without a tool
Drown into eyes while they're still blind
Love while the night still hides the withering dawn

Kiss while your lips are still red
While he's still silent
Rest while bosom is still untouched, unveiled
Hold another hand while the hand's still without a tool
Drown into eyes while they're still blind
Love while the night still hides the withering dawnLove while the night still hides the withering dawn...''<i/>

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Mood: Anguish
Listening to: the silence...
Reading: pages of the past...
Eating: none...
Drinking: absinth/wine...

Birthday & Tarja ^^

Tue Oct 28, 2008, 12:41 PM

_{Sooo, this was probably the most beautiful birthaday in my life ^^ I met Tarja last night and we talked a bit, she is so pretty and kind person! I love her! By the way, the show was more than perfect, I'll put some videos on youtube so you can see it Oh yes, I was in 2nd line XD

Here you can see some pictures I took from the last night
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